To my anon - I know not who you are nor for what reason you write with anonymity, but let me tell you something. It has become apparent to me that you and a handful of other people don’t understand just how much he means to me. & it’s quite bothersome how so many of you undermine the relationship I had with him. First of alll, he’s so much more to me than ‘just someone’ I confide in. For the past 5 years, that guy has been everything to me. Granted, he did me wrong in so many ways and he hurt me even after he swore ‘never again,’ but I’ve told my share of lies and I’ve done some things I’m not too proud of. & I can assure you that he’s not the type of guy that just wants to ‘fuck’. When it came down to the nittygritty, he was a ride or die type of fella. He made me feel safe and comfortable. He’s really easy to talk to, too. I enjoy our conversations and our heart-to-hearts. & I really enjoy his company. There was never a dull moment with him. even if we just sat there, playing cards or watching tv. I liked going places with him and taking him w/ me when I went out with my friends & I liked getting all dolled up, even if I knew I didn’t have to, but because I wanted to look good for him. I liked being loveydovey and cute with him. I know he’s not really into that whole lovedovey type of thing anymore, but still. & I know we got on each others nerves and we argued a lot, but when you find someone that makes you as happy as he makes me, you learn to overlook all that petty kind of stuff. & seconnd. I don’t think he should have to change. He’s not a bad person. He’s a really good friend, too. That’s why I love him so much; he’s great. Seriously though. I mean that’s why it was so hard for me to let him go .. not just because I still have feelings for him, but because if I let him go, I know I’d be losing my bestfriend, too.